I refuse

I have been in spiritual warfare for about the last month. For anyone who has ever been in spiritual warfare.. it's exhausting, painful to your heart, and an arduous journey.

 

I have tried to hide from it, I have tried to escape it, and I have tried to act like nothing's wrong. But the fact is, a big thing is wrong! By doing this, I am allowing sin in my life. I am not trusting in God or relying on God.  I have been reluctant to stand up for myself, and I have avoiding it by telling myself that, "I don't know how" or "I'm not sure what to do".  However, as these revelations came to me today I decided, "I refuse to allow such sin in my life!"

 

It is robbing me of my joy.. and isn't that what satan wants? To steal, kill, and destroy me?  Well, over these last few weeks.. I think that's what I've been allowing him to do. I have been somewhat paralyzed with fear. But now, I am going to put on my full armor of God!

 

Ephesians 6:11-17 "Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. ¹² For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. ¹³ Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. ¹⁴ Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, ¹⁵ and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. ¹⁶ In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. ¹⁷ Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God."

 

 

So, as I was riding in my car this morning... this song came on, "I Refuse" by Josh Wilson. While, I must admit that this song is actually referring to helping others and no longer looking at everyone as if they're okay, but truly seeing them as people with "a story"... the Lord spoke to me in a different way through this song! I am going to refuse for satan to win this battle. I am going to refuse to stand around when God has called me and equipped me to stand strong in Him, for who He created me to be and for my family!    Here are the words that spoke to me the most!

 

Sometimes I,
I just want to close my eyes
And act like everyone's alright
When I know they're not.
This world needs God
But it's easier to stand and watch.
I could say a prayer and just move on
Like nothing's wrong.

But I refuse. 

‘Cause I don't want to live like I don't care.
I don't want to say another empty prayer.
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself.
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse. 

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To turn my back
And try and act like all is well.
I refuse
To stay unchanged,
To wait another day,
To die to myself.
I refuse
To make one more excuse. 

So here I am! I refuse to allow satan to enter my life by any means. He cannot prey upon my fears or any attempt to keep me in darkness. I am a daughter of the King! That is my statement throughout this and I will stand tall and courageous, because if David can slay a giant, then I can rest assured my God will not leave me!!  Pray for me, will you?! *wink*

This is kind of a long post, but hey... it's been a while since I blogged!!  Thanks for reading this part of my journey!