My week has had some difficulty as I have been dealing with spiritual warfare. Unmistakably, over and over again God keeps showing me His faithfulness! He has equipped me with the truth of His love & faithfulness. I was worried about money this week and then Andy came home and surprisingly had been given a raise at work (after already having a promotion just a month or so earlier!) I have been reminded by a dear friend not to make other things a god in my life which hit home majorly. I so often look to the outside world for happiness, fulfillment, and love. It envelopes me into an internal battle of self-doubt and fears of failure. Yet, only GOD can give me the things which I so desperately long for: unconditional love, deep joy, and a sense of success and pride [in Him]!
After a difficult day yesterday. Nothing went as I had planned (does it ever? ha!) I felt like a failure.. in many different ways. Then I received a FB message from someone I had befriended over a year ago. She is a speaker I heard at a women's group and I was so captivated by her testimony and message to us women! She had just recently accepted my friend request. So she doesn't know me. However, she sent me a very dear message late last night to which I woke up and saw in my email this morning. In a nutshell, she said, "The Lord has laid you on my heart tonight. I want you to know that He loves you and He is your Strength and joy and your wisdom today. I know he will fulfill all His plans for you!" To say that I was in awe... is an understatement!
The GOD of the Universe DOES love me! He laid MY name on the heart of this precious woman who is in ministry and serves the Lord! I was brought to tears after reading this. In so many ways lately I've felt like a failure whether it be through my work or with my children and certainly within my marriage. Her reminder of God's love, strength, joy, & wisdom was like a drink of water to this thirsty soul.
Tonight, I was reading in my book "Captivating" by John & Staci Eldridge. So you ask, "What is the chapter about that you're reading?" Well, dear friend.. it's about Warrior Princesses! Women fighting in the battle of Spiritual Warfare!! I loved the statement, "Much of what He allows in your life is not for you to simply accept, but to get you to rise up!... God wants you to know how to take a stand, and how to fight!" So the truth is.. maybe God is preparing me for something great? Maybe He is creating a path for me that I do not quite understand at this moment, but He's refining me for greater things later on! Whatever the reason may be, I am determined to fight. I am determined to rise up and take a stand.. and learn HOW to fight! The Lord will be my strength. He will give me the Spiritual Armor I need to stop buying into satan's lies! For the next couple of weeks, my goal is to fight the lies & begin to win this battle! I plan to start writing down a list of thanksgivings. When I can see these things listed out that God has supplied for me, then I am hoping to have better discernment between the promises of God and the lies birthed from the pit of Hell.
I will end with the verse Judges 5:31 which this book quoted as well. I think it's very fitting for the warfare I'm in and the Warrior Princess I'm striving to be!
Judges 5:31 "So may all your enemies perish, O Lord! But may they who love you be like the sun when it rises in its strength."
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